Feeling Five and Overwhelmed!
Feeling kind of emotional today. It is so weird. I’m just feeling a little overwhelmed at work. It’s one of those days when I feel like the five-year-old self is in charge.
My head is filled with worry and trepidation. I am concerned about all kinds of things like not being strong enough to continue on in developing my company.
I feel like I am a marathon runner and I’ve already run three marathons in the last three days.
It is so interesting to watch myself, or put another way, be aware of myself in this place. I recognize that I am really not defeated and there is nothing much that has changed since yesterday. But, I can’t help this feeling of being overwhelmed.
The reason I am writing this is because I feel like if I write it all down I will jump over these emotions and move back to being back in control of my life.
In other words the five-year-old will sit back down and let me take back over. I recently heard a motivational speech that talked about the ones that truly persevere in the face of defeat and failure.
Basically the motivational speech mentioned that it is easy to be motivated and going somewhere when everything is going your way. It is much harder to muster the strength to move when things are a little less certain.
It is so funny that I am so keenly unaware of the fact that my company and business is growing. Today just feels overwhelming.
Now, don’t get me wrong… I don’t feel depressed. I just feel like I have too much work and not enough of me to go around.
I know I am strong and powerful, but that is not the way I’m living right this minute.
I can’t help but sit here and think about what has to change in order to get my wits about me again.
Maybe I just need to listen to some good music or do something that’s fun for me. That way I stop all of this ruminating about what’s not getting done. I feel a little trapped because I can’t get to the place where I can work right now.
So, I thought if I talk my way through it here on paper maybe it would help. I am waiting for the shift to occur. Do you know what shift I’m talking about?
It’s the shift when all of a sudden you know you are solid. You know that you can move things. You know that you could change things. You know that you are a force to be reckoned with in the world.
That is the place where personal power reminds you that you have what it takes to do anything that you set your mind to.
I am not sure if I lost you yet. I hope you’re holding on right here with me. I know in this blog post I’m just kind of rambling on. However, my point is simply that when we find ourselves in a place of feeling defeated. What should we do? What is the fastest way out of it? How do we jump back onto our feet and keep moving forward?
I have heard that the fastest way out of fear is to take massive action. So, I thought I would take massive action by writing this post. I hope you identify with it and that it encourages you to stop reading this post and take massive action in the direction that you want to change.
I feel it lifting for me now. I feel like I am recognizing my personal power. That might sound a little hokey, but you’re not in my skin right now so you don’t know how I’m feeling. wink…
I really realize that I have a choice to where I want to stand and what I want to believe. Right now I choose to believe in the possibility that things are going to stabilize and get better towards progress and success.